This is a conversation with one of my most favorite people ever – my brother, Ryan Malloy. I mention in the first episode, that at some point we are all in a recovery of sorts and Ryan and I kind of began working through our, very different but also very similar versions of recovery around the same time and we’ve supported each other and really created a safe space to talk through things and try out ideas to see how they fit – kind of a testing ground for emotions or thoughts that came up for us through the process. This conversation was basically an extension of that. But, it didn’t occur to me until we were recording, that we haven’t talked about his recovery story since it was happening in real time. I don’t know…maybe we lived it so we didn’t ever feel the need to go back to it. I was surprised how much I didn’t remember and also how much I just never knew.
Many of us are dealing with addiction and recovery intimately – whether you are at some stage addiction or of recovery or attempting to support someone through a the process. And there are pieces of all of that in this conversation. How and when Ryan realized there was a problem, a bit of what it looked like and felt like when things were spiraling out of control, how I, as a supporter both helped and hurt the situation and then what his process of recovery looks like today.
“With Dad dying and two weeks later with my daughter being born, my system just hit overload. It was too much and I couldn’t keep up the front anymore.”
Topics and resources we discuss in the episode: